-Sighs-

I think my love life is EXTREMELY complicated man.... My heart hurts when I think of Rene, the way he played with my feelings...It just hurt so much....


Listening to music to cheer up...thank God my cousin coming later to play with me^^

OH MY GOSH.....

WA LAO EHHHH.....ITS BEEN MONTHS SINCE MUA UPDATED BLOGGIE. >.< sorrie xia....
Had Lit o lvl today, phew, damn stressed... heheh. XD

TOO MUCH TO FILL UP YOU GUYS WITH...

Sorry ppl, its been long since i came here and posted something xia... hmm... today have Chinese 'O' level Listening comprehension xia...damn worried about it now...
Prelims start next week,i guess i wont have much or any time to come online anymore xia... >.< ANW, school is boring these days so yeah...Gargh(?) lols... BOOMX!!!!
Being random now cause boredom just shot me...

Thinking of my past memories that i treasure alot...so sad...>.<

Confusion...

Im confused on whcih path to choose,
Should i choose the old or should i choose the new.
However, this time,
the old wont be WD.
It be R.

R VS CYH.

Help!

What's done cannot be undone...

Today was really something man...Something happened to Sm & Cal, but in the end, problem was solved and they are back together again^^. Oh well, after everything I went online to fb, thn talked to Cal. Guess what, he said that im like a Love guru, LOL. My love life is so screwed >.<. HAHAS!

18 June 2010

Woah, today felt splendid!!!!LOL.
Today, i went out with TSM to accompany her to Cal's birthday bash, LOL, a football cake.
There were like 14 guys, cause they were playing soccer and only two girls, TSM & I.
It was pretty awkward when we went to town cause Cal & TSM were acting lovey dovey. I was trying to run away from them but in vain. >.<
Then, when we were about to leave, they stared to smooch and stuff, and i had to pretend nothing hppened and walk away. ><
Thn, in the end, i was pretty shocked that this is probably the only time when i will go out with so many guys. LOL.
Im guy deprived!!!!!! XD.
I want to have a boyfriend too!!
TSM and Cal made me jealous X( !!!!

LOL,I HAD FUN TODAY!!!!!And I saw a guy i like^^, remember, i have a fetish for bad guys, lol, no idea why. Guess, its cause i have been such a 'good' gurl for life, its time for a change!! LOL.XD.

Shocked....

The guy whom I have liked for almost 3 months, shocked me. Why? I found his new fb account and they stated that he posted 3 hours ago. I haven't talked to him for a month...FML...

I am neither a toy nor a machine...

How do you expect me to react with you have finally gotten things fired up,
and then just say that you think you have spilt personalties,
and you have no idea what is happening.
I am not your toy, one where you can throw to vast your anger on,
or a machine who can control my temper like a switch.
I cannot be angry and suddenly become happy like there is a switch.

Let's just say i shall try to forget about things because we already have a strained friendship...

All alone...

Without you, i felt alone.
With my friends gone, i AM alone.
I dun have frens nor love ones.
I am a fool, for letting you go.
Give me a chance and i will make it right.
Give it a thought, and give me your answer tonight.

P.S:I really miss you,i promise that i do.

MoNsTeR!!

You are the one who has taken my heart,
you are the one who has given me love,
you are the one who has always been there for me,
until recently...
You are a monster,
because of what you do to me...

Life is confusing...

Sometimes you think that things have changed for the better but then realised that they changed for the worse...
You never know when things will change, for the good or the worse.
But you must keep hoping and wishing that things will turn in for the good...^^

I hope your life gets better, i hope mine does too...

This is a DISASTER!!!

Some times things get better, some times they don't.
And you know what? It all depend fully on you!

REFLECTION...

Sollte ich behalte meine Gefuhle fur dich in meinem herzen?

Deprimiert

Hier sitze ich hier wie ein Ganschen warten efuttert, wahrend der Bauer geht an ein Nickerchan zu machen sein.

CONFESSION:

I have something to say to all readers of my blog.

I have learnt to let go...

I have not mastered the skill to fully let go, but im trying to and i think i just had, ^^.

(Hello? Ijust talked to him on msn and told him to go for it!! For the new girl he likes^^)

Ohoh, and also, i want to go to Germany, Niedersachsen.

Hey du, schau hier.

Ich versuche, dich besser und weiB, du bist hier, sagen mir nicht deine Vergangenheit, eine, die sie wurde jeden, der es wissen will tell...

Vielleicht bin ich immer fur Sie kein Grund, aufgeregt, aber ich bin trotzdem immer noch wutend.

*NOTE!

To Anne dearest, she only knows him as MY German fish. LOL.XD
To Lizzy, she most probably thinks that he is in the same catergory as Nickolas.
To Van, she knows him as Rene.
To Ln, she probably knows the most.
To Wq, she doesnt know much because she is my BFF and her opinions ARE the MOST IMPORTANT!!!

To me, he is a wonderful guy^^ My German baby^^ XD.;P

Are your feelings for me genuine?[ENGLISH VERSION]

To my german baby,

I know that i do not have the right to ask you this question because even im not sure about how i feel about you.

But one thing im positive about is that i thank god that i have you in my life.

I like you, even probably love you too.

-Honey Pearline

Sind deine Gefuhle fur mich echt? [GERMAN VERSION]

um mein Deutsch zu Baby,

Ich weiB, dass ich nicht die Rechte an Sie bitten, diese Frage, weil auch ich bin nicht sicher, wir ich fur dich empfinde.

Aber eins bin ich positiv ist, dass ich Gott danken, dass ich dich in meinnem Leben.

Ich mag dich, sogar wahrscheinlich liebe dich auch.

-Honig Pearline

Ich Liebe Dich Rene...

Its a battle between three males today.
It is a battle between WD, Chase Mertz and Rene.
A confusing battle,
a losing battle?,
or a winning one?

Life IS confusing, it has always been for me anyways...

That boy's a MONSTER...

He ate my heart...


TKAM play is held tomorrow night, damn excited now.
Flagday held on saturday, damn worried now lo.
Sunday have Next week have all the exams lo, so sian la
I wanna have some fun but,...
LIstening to Lady Gaga's music...

Live on TV...

Im so tired today, saw this funny auntie wearing some red clothes. lol. it was damn funny!!!! Hahas!!

Gawd why is it so damn UNFAIR??

Why is it so hard to talk to you peaceful now? Totally in love...with ToKio-HoTeL
LOL.XD.Hahas...

Hey everyone!!

Its a pretty awesome day for me today. Saw Yolanda,vivien, charmaine and juli ytd when i was out shopping with my mom at far east plaza.
Went to see the docs again ytd, aunt says that med that he gave are weak and cheap and could be bought in a box in shops...>>
Flu, cough, sorethroat. These things that kill me...>>

Random Thoughts...

Each step you make,
Each breath you take,
Your heart,
Your soul,
Remote controlled,
This life is so sick,
Youre AuToMaTic to Me...

Automatic Lyrics:

Automatic
Automatic

You're automatic,
And your heart's like an engine
I die with every beat
You're automatic,
And your voice is electric
Why do i still believe?

It's automatic
Everywhere in your letter
A lie that makes me bleed
It's automatic
When you say things get better
But they never...

There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
Why do i keep loving you

It's automatic,
Counting cars on a crossroad
They come and go like you
It's automatic,
Watching faces i don't know
Erase the face of you

It's automatic
Systematic
So traumatic
You're automatic

There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
Why do i keep loving you

Automatic
Automatic
Automatic
Automatic

Each step you make
Each breath you take
Your heart. your soul.
Remote-controlled
This life is so sick
You're automatic to me



Automatic RaWkS!! Woots!!!

To A Special Someone...

I will never forget you, i will keep those memories in my heart forever...
I thank you for giving me the feeling of liking someone who likes me back. Though there may not be all pleasant memories, i will always cherish them. God bless you.



ToKiO HoTeL- AuToMaTiC RAWKS~!!

What You Do To Me!!!

I talked to my dar this afternoon for 8min9secs. Had an ejoyable time, felt much better after hearing his laughter.

Love sticks...

I still can't believe that it my dar and i have officially broken for 1 week+.
Im still shock by what happpened, i still like my dar as usual. But i didnt know that i still did until my honeybun WQ told me that it was pretty obvious that i still like him >> I had 1 day mc today, doc says i have cough, sorethroat and might get flu & fever >>
Doc also says that i gotta keep a jacket with me all times cause now my class have air-cons on (A-con) ^^
I joked to my frens that i have a new bf since last sept >> But guess wat? It only my bicycle Chase Mertz >> Yeah.
I still like you dar, youre always in my head...

Hei people...

The latest news for this week is that before my dar and I were together for one month, we broke.
The details are private so...
Feeling horrible now, cried that night and the days after.
I feel like life has been sucked out of me ya know?
It sucks,
IT SUCKS TO BE ME...

Hello everyone!

Hey all! Just finished the first week of school and im like damn tired already cause the school is bigger...
More excuses to be late for classes. hahas.Jk. LOL. XD

Well, im suppose to meet him today but thn he last min say cant go cause dad at home... >>
Watta do now? well, went home earlier lo. oh and i took a walk around the area of his hse. >> Its really near my school lol.

Hello, Yellow, Pink Ello!! ^^

Heyyo!! LOL. Talk to my darling yesterday, hahas for 55mins++ lol. It was fun cause he was damn hyper!! LOL.^^ Anw, talked to him again today, pretty good too, ^^ He had to go home earlier too. >> My clique wanted to meet him today...IDKY los. hahas!

Had to wait til about 5.30pm for sister.>>So long & hot lo...

Hey All...

School Starts TOMORROW!!! WOAH. A year has passed and aint that amazing? Hahas. Anw, my darling sent me something that i think you wanna read as well^^.

WARNING!! If you are NOT eligible to read valgular words, Please DO NOT continue!!
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2
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Tadadadadaa!!!~~~

British vs Singapore english. . One may conclude that our English is kanasai, but actually, its simple, short, concise, straight to the point, effective etc.
-- Returning a call,
British: Hello this is John. Did anyone call me few minutes ago?
SG: hello ,u call me ar?
--Asking someone to make way.
British: Excuse me , I would like to get by, would u make way?
SG: s-kew me.
-- When someone offers to pay
British: Hey! Put ur wallet away, this drink is on me!
SG: donnid la, so paisei!
-- When asking for permission,
Btitish: Is it possible for me to borrow me your pen?
SG: borrow me your pen
-- When u don't like the person.
British: Would you stop being a bitch and stop being a nuisance?
SG: FUCK OFF LA
-- when some is staring.
British: What is it you are staring at boy?
SG: kua simi lan jiao?
-- when someone is noisy
British: Stop talking so loudly here
SG: kao pe la hor.

Hahas!Still love him!! ^^ LOL

Heyyo!!

Well, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!! LOL.
I didn't talk to him at all yesterday...Cause i didn't managed to go on9 yesterday. And I went to watch Sherlock Holmes too!!
Managed to talk to him just now, he is playing Maple/SA so not that responsive...lol.
But its ok ^^, hahas. WEll, Still miss him ALOT!
TOTALL LOVE MY BF!!!HAHAS lol. ^^